there's a danger in loving somebody too much
and it's sad when you know it's your heart you can't trust
there's a reason why people don't stay where they are
baby sometimes love just ain't enough

Jesus and Religion are two different clans..
Religion is Man searching for God,
Jesus is God searching for Man..



what if i told you,
Jesus came to abolish religion?
what if i told you,
voting republican really wasn’t his mission?
what if i told you,
republican doesn’t automatically mean Christian
and just because you call some people blind
doesn’t automatically give you vision

if religion is so great
why has it started so many wars?
why does it build huge churches
but fails to feed the poor?
tell single mums God doesn’t love them
if they’ve ever had a divorce
but in the Old Testament
God actually calls the religious people whores

religion might preaches grace
but another thing they practice
tend to ridicule God's people
they did it to John the Baptist
they can't fix their problems
and so they just to mask it
not realizing religion
is like sprayin perfume on a casket

see, the problem with religion
is that it never gets to the core
it’s just behaviour modification
like a long list of chores
like let’s dress up the outside
make things look nice and neat
but it's funny that’s what they used to do to mummies
while the corpse rots underneath

now i ain’t judging
i'm just saying quit putting on a fake look,
because there’s a problem
if people only know that you’re a Christian by your facebook
i mean, in every other aspect of life
you know that logic's unworthy
it's like saying you play for the lakers
just because you bought a jersey

see, this was me too
but no one seemed to be on to me
acting like church kid
while addicted to pornography
see, on sunday i'd go to church
but saturday getting faded
acting as if i was simply created
to have sex and get wasted

see, i spend my whole life
building this façade of neatness
but now that i know Jesus
i boast in my weakness
because if grace is water
then the church should be an ocean
it's not a museum for good people
it’s a hospital for the broken

which mean i don't have to hide my failures
i don’t have to hide my sin
because it doesn’t depend on me
it depends on Him
see, because when i was God's enemy
and certainly not a fan,
He looked down on me
and said, “i want that man!”

which is why Jesus hated religion
and before He called 'em fools
don’t you see He's so much better
than just following some rules?
now let me clarify, i love the church
i love the bible, and yes, i believe in sin
but if Jesus came to your church
would they actually let Him in?

see, remember He was called
a drunkard and a glutton by “religious men”
but the Son of God never supported self-righteousness
not now, not then
now back to the point, one thing is vital to mention
how Jesus and religion are on opposite spectrums
see, one is the work of God
but one is a man made invention
see, one is the cure
but the other is the infection

see, because religion says do
Jesus says done.
religion says slave
Jesus says son,
religion puts you in bondage
whilst Jesus sets you free
religion makes you blind
but Jesus makes you see

see that's why religion and Jesus
are two different clans
religion is man searching for God
Christianity is God searching for man
which is why salvation is freely mine
and forgiveness is my own
not based on my merits
but Jesus' obedience alone

because He took the crown of thorns
and the blood dripped down his face
He took what we all deserved
i guess that's why you call it grace
and while being murdered He yelled
“Father forgive them, they know not what they do”
because when He was dangling on that cross
He was thinking of you

and He absorbed all your sin
and He buried it in the tomb,
which is why i'm kneeling at the cross
saying, "come on, there’s room"
so for religion, no i hate it
in fact, i literally resent it
because when Jesus said "it is finished"
i believe He meant it

the gce o-level results were released yesterday...
sadly, many of my youths (tho i thought some did pretty well) weren't too happy =((

coincidentally, during my quiet time today, i came across this passage and i thought of sharing it.. with them, or with anyone else reading this post =)

psalms 33:10-11
"the LORD foils the plans of the nations, He thwarts the purposes of peoples.
but the plans of the LORD stand firm forever, the purposes of His heart through all generations"

anyone who knows me knows that i'm miss perfectionist. i need everything to be in place and the way i want it to be. i keep an organiser, write to-do lists, set reminders.. just so that everything has a plan/keeps to plan.

but the realist in all of us will admit that plans will NEVER follow through 100%.. at some point, some thing or some one will come along and mess it up, disrupt it..

this morning i was reminded to "bless the interruptions", because these interruptions come from God.. and anything that comes from God must be good =))

take for example virgin Mary, a young lady betrothed to her fiance Joseph, one fine day interrupted by angel Gabriel, to tell her she was pregnant?!? imagine the ridicule and humiliation she received from her family and friends.. even Joseph wanted to cancel the wedding when he found out!! but looked at the result?? she became the mother to the Messiah, the one true God!

so to my dear 17/18-year-olds.. or to anyone like me, who takes pride in making plans.. take some time to stop. breathe. and listen. listen to what plan He has in store for you, cuz even whilst it may not be something that you expect/wanted, i promise you, it'll be 10x more exciting! =D

it's a brand new year, it's a brand new start...

but as everyone goes about making resolutions about how they wanna exercise more, eat less, blah blah blah.. i've decided to keep things simple.

so as i enter my 25th year of age, aka quarter-life mark, i'm gonna make my life (and my story/blog) a whole lot less about me, and more about other things that matter more =D

that said, my new year's resolution is:
to smile more, to give more and to love more~


and... on another note, i'm gonna be starting a food blog!! =))

it's a totally new project, so do support me! hee~

see you @ thetravellingtastebuds.blogspot.com

revived an old entry cuz it was just so meaning... enjoy~

"as you all know, we are getting closer to my birthday. every year there is a celebration in my honor and I think that this year the celebration will be repeated. during this time there are many people shopping for gifts, there are many radio announcements, TV commercials, and in every part of the world everyone is talking that my birthday is getting closer and closer.

it is really very nice to know, that at least once a year, some people think of me. as you know, the celebration of my birthday began many years ago. At first people seemed to understand and be thankful of all that I did for them, but in these times, no one seems to know the reason for the celebration. family and friends get together and have a lot of fun, but they don't know the meaning of the celebration.

i remember that last year there was a great feast in my honour. the dinner table was full of delicious foods, pastries, fruits, assorted nuts and chocolates.the decorations were exquisite and there were many, many beautifully wrapped gifts. but, do you want to know something? i wasn't invited. i was the guest of honour and they didn't remember to send me an invitation.

the party was for me, but when that great day came, i was left outside, they closed the door in my face.......... and i wanted to be with them and share their table.

in truth, that didn't surprise me because in the last few years all close their doors to me. since I was not invited, I decided to enter the party without making any noise . i went in and stood in a corner. they were all drinking; there were some who were drunk and telling jokes and laughing at everything. they were having a great time. to top it all, this big fat man all dressed in red wearing a long white beard entered the room yelling ho-ho-ho! he seemed drunk. he sat on the sofa and all the children ran to him, saying : "santa claus, santa claus"... as if the party were in his honour!

at 12 midnight all the people began to hug each other ; i extended my arms waiting for someone to hug me and....do you know .... no one hugged me. suddenly they all began to share gifts. They opened them one by one with great expectation. when all had been opened, I looked to see if, maybe, there was one for me. what would you feel if on your birthday everybody shared gifts and you did not get one? i then understood that i was unwanted at that party and quietly left.

every year it gets worse. people only remember to eat and drink, the gifts, the parties and nobody remembers me. i would like this Christmas to be one that you allow me to enter into your life.

i would like that you recognize the fact that almost two thousand years i came to this world to give my life for you, on the cross, to save you. today, I only want that you believe this with all you heart. i want to share something with you. as many didn't invite me to their party, I will have my own celebration, a grandiose party that no one has ever imagined, a spectacular party.

i'm still making the final arrangements. today I am sending out many invitations and there is an invitation for you. i want to know if you wish to attend and i will make a reservation for you and write your name with golden letters in my great guest book. only those on the guest list will be invited to the party. those who don't answer the invitation, will be left outside.

do you know how you can answer this invitation? it is by extending it to others whom you care for...

i'll be waiting for all of you to attend my party...
see you soon.... i love you!"

-Jesus-

Let's remember the reason for the season. Merry Christmas Everyone!

tried out google+ recently and in the midst of updating my profile and all, i realised they auto-synced all my blog pictures to my google+ account!

3 more days to 3 years...

it's funny, you know. how the world seems to enjoy toying around with everybody's lives..

look at me. i grew up in a pretty well-to-do family. i spent most of my life living in a landed property, having a domestic helper to 'attend to' me, getting driven in/driving one of my family's 4 vehicles, wearing branded clothings, having abundant (tho subjective) cash to spend, attending good schools, and the list could probably go on a lil longer.

NO NO NO, don't get me wrong, i'm not bragging.. really. even tho there are probably plenty who would get all green-eyed if they knew about my life.. you see, that's the huge irony. while many dream of living in a big house, having a car to drive, or simply strike it rich, i have always yearned for that one simple thing every little kid hears in their fairytales - "happily ever after". call me domesticated, but i sometimes think of what kind of mother i'll be like in the future, how i'd doll my little ones, the places i'd take them, the things i'd do. of cuz i'm only having these motherly instincts at a "later age". when i was younger, i just longed for my prince charming.

and yet, here i am: at the age of 24 (in a few months' time), still living in my nice house, driving my car, getting "waited upon" by my domestic helper, wearing nice clothes, having a (hopefully) optimistic job prospect; but also celebrating 3 years of not singlehood, but complicated i-do-not-know-how-to-define-us relationship. and guess what, i don't even know how or when it'll end.

once upon a time, a little girl had a dream. she did not dream of becoming pretty, she did not dream of becoming rich, she just dreamt of finding her knight in shining armour so she could get married by 25, have kids by 28 and have her happily ever after. but looks like even something as simple as this could end up as just another made-up pipe dream fantasy.

goodnight, world. you and your cruel jokes.

i'm definitely sure that i'm over him
i'm definitely sure that i've no more romantic feelings for him
and i'm definitely sure that i'm not jealous..... right?

hmm....

maybe i am jealous.
not jealous of her.
but jealous of him.
cuz he has something that i don't.
and i want it so bad =(