HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MEEE!!! =))

i love birthdays.. especially more so if they were mine =D

birthdays are always so awesome cuz it's the one day when everyone's attention is on you: they shower you with gifts, blessings and wishes of love, just to you you you and you (and whoever happens to share the same birthday =X)

but that's not the only reason why i love birthdays so much (don't get me wrong, i'm not obsessed over getting attention =P)..

birthdays mark a milestone in your life - i don't know about you, but it's the one day every year that allows me to sit back and look at how different things are/were since your last birthday.. how much you've grown, how much you've matured, and how much you've been through

my 22nd birthday was the start of a new phase of life for me - it was my first birthday as a working adult! =))

and tho i think i'm still very much the same fio you know, i starting to believe that on 12th November 2009, i left a part of me behind.

blame it on the age? of finally crossing the 21 mark and REALLY entering the adult world? or blame it on the fact that i'm no longer a student but a full time white collar professional?

maybe it's a bit of both.. but cheers to a new chapter in my life! =D

"What Scott saw was you grasping at anything you can to push me away...

You're scared because you're in love with me like you've never been in love with any of your husbands. Because unlike a Bart Bass someone like me can actually break your heart. And I know because right now you're breaking mine..."


"We can keep asking each other if we can do this. We can keep planning, and adjusting, and talking some more. Or we can just leap. So let's leap!"


so let's leap =))

had dinner with caroline (and ben & fabian) today, and it was really really nice meeting her again after such a looooong time... for those who don't know her, caroline's from SIM, but she's not a classmate or a fellow councillor/wakeboarder/windsurfer; in fact, she's actually one of the student programme administrators. that said, my only 'interactions' with caroline in past were always purely work-based and it was not till tonight that we actually got to sit down and have a heart-to-heart talk..

from waiting for my bus to come, to missing the next few buses, we just sat at the bus stop and talked about our lives.. to a slight extent, there was a similar experience we were both going through: we were both stuck at a point of our life where we were faced with a difficult choice of "should i stay, or should i go"

and i guess i have to admit, being someone who's usually very open to sharing about my life, i've heard so so many different advice/opinions from friends and close ones, but hearing from caroline just wasn't the same. somehow, from that short 'sharing session' we had, she managed to understand what i was going through, where i was coming from and most importantly, she also managed to put so many things into perspective for me.....

one of the favourite things she said to me was that in life, we can never ever be contented. we always want more, expect more. and if we choose to 'run away' or 'move on' everytime we find that we are not getting what we want/expect, then we'll never be able to settle down. so instead of always thinking "am i happy here", ask ourselves "am i unhappy here?"; because you see, there are, and will always be, two sides to everything: the good and the bad.. so tho sometimes we are faced with horrible horrible circumstances, yet at the same time, we may find ourselves finding the most wonderful joys and memories from the same situation, and sometimes, the good things make tolerating the bad things easier and worth it.

haha it's kinda like economics isn't it?? =P there will always be a cost and a benefit to everything, and by carrying out a 'cost-benefit analysis' we are able to determine whether the benefits outweigh the costs and if so, by what margin.. ?


and i suppose these answers are what will tell.. "should i stay, or should i go?"

one more month to my birthdayyyyy!!!!

=)))))

i always love this time of the year....

halloween, birthdays, christmas, new years'...

PARTTYYY SEASONN'S COMINGGGG! =DD

caught (500) days of summer yesterday and totally loved it!

i loved the cinematography, going back-and-forth in time, sorta like the movie 'sliding doors'
i loved the comical effects these indie films always have (like juno!)
i loved the role reversal of a sentimental lovelorn boy vs a no-strings-attached girl
i loved the amazing actors and actresses who each portrayed their roles so well
i loved the soundtrack
i loved the story..

and tho it was disclaimed from the beginning that it wasn't a love story, i'd still say it was...

love stories don't need labelled relationships
love stories don't need happily-ever-afters
love stories are simply about, well, LOVE...


and love is all we need.


(day 440)

=)))))))))))

i choose to hold on,

not because i need someone to fill a space
but because i want you to make my world a better place..



2 more weeks. i'm counting down.